my expiration date in any given place is about five years. i’ve been in the nova area since i was three with a few stints here and there, so i’m not really sure where that comes from. i think that my travels have had an impact on it, but i’m not sure if it is the cause or result. and i am fairly certain that being single plays a large part. i simply get restless, frustrated and bored.
i’ve been back in the area for six years, and in january will have been with my company for four, which more than doubles the time i’ve been anywhere. and it was about a year ago that i started feeling like i needed a change. i’ve felt drawn to north carolina for a long time, probably in part due to my college stint in charlotte. i love that state and long to be there. it’s close enough to the family that it doesn’t make me completely isolated, and as of late, there seems to have been a migration of people i love to that area.
so i’ve been looking, and waiting, for the right opportunity to come along. the truth of the matter is, this company has been good to me and allowed me to do what i love, so i can’t justify leaving unless i am absolutely certain that the time and opportunity is right. but lately i have been coming closer and closer to my breaking point. in part, it comes as a result of some corporate structure changes that have changed my job in ways i am not happy with. but it’s bigger than that. i am ready for a ‘next step’, whatever that is. i’ve done the single career woman thing here for long enough, and i need something different. since i enjoy what i do, and have not inherited millions as far as i know, i still need to work, but location seems like a good fix, if only for a few years.
what is frustrating me even more right now, is that everyone around me seems to be experiencing major change. julie is expecting her 2nd child, kristina and ralph are planning a move to north carolina, stephanie just left for montana, gwen up and moved to utah, angela and steve are planning a move to new york, corey and jill are walking down the marriage road. it’s happening with co-workers too. one of them told me last week he was leaving, another is planning on leaving by the end of the year, and i just learned that my boss is tendering her resignation. these are people i have known and worked with for years. they have looked out for me (two of the three are the entire reason i am where i am) and supported me, and been substantial contributors to my enjoyment at the company.
change is happening all around me, but not to me. were i better with finances, i would take the leap of faith and just see. but there was a period of time when i was out of work for a year and a half, working temp and odd jobs here and there, and that has made me afraid. it’s made worse by the fact that i was in a similar situation-- i needed and felt like it was time for a change, and i took a leap of faith. i believe that is was the right thing to do, but it was one of the most difficult periods of my life. and that leaves me now trying to determine whether i am going to let fear and logic keep me here, or if i am just going to make the decision to leap again, and pray that the outcome will be different.
i’ve been back in the area for six years, and in january will have been with my company for four, which more than doubles the time i’ve been anywhere. and it was about a year ago that i started feeling like i needed a change. i’ve felt drawn to north carolina for a long time, probably in part due to my college stint in charlotte. i love that state and long to be there. it’s close enough to the family that it doesn’t make me completely isolated, and as of late, there seems to have been a migration of people i love to that area.
so i’ve been looking, and waiting, for the right opportunity to come along. the truth of the matter is, this company has been good to me and allowed me to do what i love, so i can’t justify leaving unless i am absolutely certain that the time and opportunity is right. but lately i have been coming closer and closer to my breaking point. in part, it comes as a result of some corporate structure changes that have changed my job in ways i am not happy with. but it’s bigger than that. i am ready for a ‘next step’, whatever that is. i’ve done the single career woman thing here for long enough, and i need something different. since i enjoy what i do, and have not inherited millions as far as i know, i still need to work, but location seems like a good fix, if only for a few years.
what is frustrating me even more right now, is that everyone around me seems to be experiencing major change. julie is expecting her 2nd child, kristina and ralph are planning a move to north carolina, stephanie just left for montana, gwen up and moved to utah, angela and steve are planning a move to new york, corey and jill are walking down the marriage road. it’s happening with co-workers too. one of them told me last week he was leaving, another is planning on leaving by the end of the year, and i just learned that my boss is tendering her resignation. these are people i have known and worked with for years. they have looked out for me (two of the three are the entire reason i am where i am) and supported me, and been substantial contributors to my enjoyment at the company.
change is happening all around me, but not to me. were i better with finances, i would take the leap of faith and just see. but there was a period of time when i was out of work for a year and a half, working temp and odd jobs here and there, and that has made me afraid. it’s made worse by the fact that i was in a similar situation-- i needed and felt like it was time for a change, and i took a leap of faith. i believe that is was the right thing to do, but it was one of the most difficult periods of my life. and that leaves me now trying to determine whether i am going to let fear and logic keep me here, or if i am just going to make the decision to leap again, and pray that the outcome will be different.
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It's funny. Leaping was the easy part for me. I just KNEW that it was what I was supposed to do. It was actually one step short of having the Lord hit me over the head with a baseball bat and say, GO THERE. NOW. It's the part that comes after the leap, where you sit there and go... what the freak did I just do? That's the hard part. LOL. But if it's the right thing to do, it's totally worth it :D (I keep saying that over and over!) But speaking of finances, know anyone that wants to buy a condo? LOL.
That would all depend on the location and cost of the condo :)
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