it's not that any one single thing has happened to make me feel this way, but there are a lot of changes lately, and i thrive on change.
some of these changes are ones i am making, some are just happening. of the former, i, for no discernible reason have been motivated to focus more on my health. i have cut back to one soda per day and stopped eating dinner after 7pm--both of which are monumental challenges for me. beyond that, i am back in the gym on a daily basis, and it feels great. for whatever reason, this time around, gym time is not so much of a chore as it is release and relaxation. and the added benefit to feeling better and losing weight, is that my insomnia has been abated.
in regards to the latter, i find that i am actually getting excited about my teaching responsibilities. don't get me wrong, the actual teaching part is still alarming, but when i consider that between gospel doctrine and stake enrichment, i will be teaching every week for the next month, i find myself eager to learn and to grow. i am looking forward to the preparation-which is a BIG change.
in addition, i am enjoying my job again. i realized that i would enjoy it more consistently if i was doing a larger number of events. i have had two in the past week, and there is nothing like an event day to give me an adrenaline rush. while the bulk of event planning work is done in the preparation, it is on event days that i truly shine. i love the people interaction, i love watching my work come together in a tangible measurable way, and i love the acknowledgement of a job well done.
last week's event was an annual meeting for the top 250 or so in the company. after the event, i was having a conversation with one of our senior vp's (admittedly one of my favorites). we were talking about my job, and he turned to me and got very serious and said, 'you know, all this is a really big deal to renny [the ceo]--the dinners, the meetings, the events. he used to stress about them constantly, but ever since you have been in charge, he couldn't be happier.'that is why i love event days.
last night's event was much smaller--a dinner for 30--but the gratitude was still abundant nonetheless. with as much money as i spend, it is a powerful thing to overhear the cfo tell someone that 'tara does an amazing job for us.'
in addition to some good work days, i found that passing valentine's day shoveling snow, wasn't such a bad way to celebrate the holiday.
with dad out of town, it was left to my mom and i to do the duties. we spent probably 5 hours or so clearing the driveway while i prayed for a plow to come down our court. the only fear i have (at least, to my current knowledge) is that of being trapped. that fear comes from being snowed in, not being able to get out of a crowded club, or any other number of situations. it doesn't happen often, and it's not related to the size of a space, or the number of people in it..it just boils down to feeling fear when i feel as though i can't 'get out' of where i am. so spending the majority of wednesday shoveling was a very good distraction. at 5pm that day the plow finally came, and i was gone. but i'll tell you, i didn't once think about how single i was or how crappy valentine's day is!
so far february has been unexpectedly happy, and next month promises to be even better. i am particularly excited about corey and jill's upcoming wedding, and as icing on the cake, the chance to visit my extended family. this utah trip, i will be staying with my cute cousin mel in her recently purchased house, and i am sure it is going to be a blast!
i have no more events until then, so i plan to continue focusing on my other personal improvement goals.
so life is good. i made it through a rough holiday, i like my job, i like (for the most part) my calling. i have a vacation coming. i feel better physically, and i am not stressing (like i usually do) about being alone. all things in good time, and for now, life is good:)
here is a fun video treat from kendyl on our snow day:
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