maybe i put too much stock in my horoscope

probably more than a few of you know that i'm slightly obsessed with astrologyzone.com. each month, i look forward to what susan miller is going to tell me about the upcoming month, because more often than not, she is right on the nose. i realize that others feel differently (anne, for instance, who shares my sign, and whom it very rarely applies to), but for me, i often gape at just how well this stranger knows me.

case in point:

Is all this pressure and effort you are going through worth it? Yes, it is. You are giving birth to a whole new way of life, one that is meant for you, and one that you will enjoy more than the old one you are leaving.

Saturn is now toughening you up so that you'll be ready for anything life throws your way. As you walk across the creaky old bridge to your new life, don't look to your right or left and by all means, as you go across, don't look down. Just keep looking forward, putting one foot in front of the other. This is a process that requires concentration.

Under these very isolating and testing aspects, at times you will feel a little lonely, as if you are swimming in the middle of the ocean in high seas in a perfect storm. That's the way Saturn and Uranus tend to work - to isolate so that you will choose the remedy that feels right for you. Saturn and Uranus want to teach you to rely on yourself and not to ask others to make the decisions or other actions for you. You need to be present in all actions and to take the final responsibility for all decisions.

The feeling of isolation that you may experience is only an illusion - you will see evidence of this during April's last week, for instance. (More about that later.) Your friends, loved ones, and colleagues really do care about you and want to help you!

is it sacriligious if i say 'amen'?

honestly, i can't think of a better way to describe my life right now. work is overwhelming, i am completely stressed out about my new calling (2 friggin' weeks until the mid-singles conference!), and i am more self-reliant in this moment of my life than i have ever been. i'm paying off debt, learning about budgets and prioritizing, living on far less than i ever thought i could or would, and somehow, i'm making it work.

i often feel a little lonely and isolated, but over the course of the next several weeks, i will have many opportunities to spend time with people i love...dylan and kelly next weekend in portland, followed by a visit from my friend justin who is attending the conference. after that, i get to spend time with anne here, and lara in vegas on back to back weekends.

there is opposition, or rather, balance, in all things, and ms. miller is more right than anyone should be. ironically, she also mentions i 'may go out of town to see a friend or member of my family, such as your sister or brother' at exactly the time i'm doing just that. coincidence?