all week there has been a heavy weight on my heart. i have attempted to blog it several times, yet doing so seemed to make it more real. but the reality has set in nonetheless--so much so that i have woken twice this week in tears, and so i blog.
recently, kate took kendyl to nashville to visit a friend and determine the feasability of a move there. upon their return, she let us know that she was going to pick up and go. so at the end of march, the two of them will be moving, and my heart is breaking.
perhaps this may seem an overdramatic reaction for an aunt, but my experience as such has been anything but typical.
i was there to witness kendyl's arrival into the world and her first breaths. since then, we have shared the same house, and i have been blessed to be a part of all of the wonderful firsts a child has. first words, first steps, solid food... i have spent the nearly three years of her life in close quarters with her, and now she is going to be living in another state.
it looks as though i may be in utah during move time, and i am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. all i know right now is that i am a wreck, and every moment spent with her now is bittersweet.
6 comments:
Tara, I'm so sorry. I know exactly how you feel, having a similar experience with my wee ones a few years ago (which i will have to endure yet again in a few months). If I can do anything for you please let me know!!
If it helps, you can come by and hug Caius and Tristan a bunch until you feel better.
I'm so, so sorry. I completely understand how you are feeling.
Let me know if there is anything I can do for you...including going to Nashville with you to visit. Because you are my good friend, I would make that sacrifice...even if it means a trip to the Second Fiddle. I would do that for you.
aaron.. i will have plenty of non-maternal maternal love to go around--especially for those darlings
lara..you are sooo generous! :) ;)
Tara,I am so sorry. I wish there was a way I could help...I can't offer little kids for you to cuddle..but I am more then willing to be a travel buddy when needed.
I am sorry too. Sometimes change can be the sweetest thing in the world. At other times it can suck big time. There is one positive element about the move that I can see, not knowing the situation in full, and that is there is no better excuse to visit Nashville more often. Cowboy Up! Yee haw!
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