Friday, April 07, 2006

mellowing out

either i am starting to mellow out, or i am just becoming truly apathetic.

nicholas moved on yesterday. i'm still fighting money battles at work. people are still ungrateful. i saw the worst movie ever last night. and i think i have moved passed feeling.

"self-acceptance comes from meeting life's challenges vigorously. don't numb yourself to your trials and difficulties, nor build mental walls to exclude pain from your life. you will find peace not by trying to escape your problems, but by confronting them courageously. you will find peace not in denial, but in victory."

uh-huh. yeah. i'll get right on that.

the truth of the matter is, i am feeling too much. i'm overwhelmed by what i'm feeling and wish that i could just shut my brain down. just for a few minutes. just a little respite.

oh wait? what's this? a gift certificate at the red door spa for a half-day 'escape' package. think i just found the temporary fix. if they have calgon, i'm totally set;)

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